Tuesday, 10 March 2009

Under The Star Fruit Tree

At the small compound in front of the house where I spent the first 6 years of my childhood, a star fruit tree used to stand. Beneath its foliage, my younger sister and I had spent many happy, carefree hours. We were the best of playmates - I do not remember ever quarrelling with her. We were not rambunctious children, like my three sons, who favoured boisterous, rough-and-tumble, competitive games. Rather, we loved cooperative role-playing games and our imagination knew no bounds.

Under the star fruit tree, we played make-believe masak-masak. We used imagined utensil to stir-fry its leaves. Then, we garnished the dish with the delicate magenta flowers from the same tree and finally served it with pretend-rice, which was nothing but the soil of the earth. The sandy soil also doubled as cake mixture or pancake dough at our command.

Besides masak-masak, one of our favourite role-play was pretending to be poor. Ya, get over it….! For whatever reason (the 60’s Cantonese movies that we watched with my mum and grandma?), pretending to be poor seemed fun, lol! Our hand-quilted blankets would end up as the roof of our humble abode and we would huddle in a corner to escape the pelting rain which threatened to drown all our precious belongings, usually pillows and bolsters!

Our versatile pillows and bolsters also became our stepping stones as we attempted to cross raging rivers. Our games would be peppered with conversations, in pretend high-pitch adult voices - the more urgent the situation, the higher our pitch!

Toys were rare. I don’t remember getting my first doll until I was in primary school. It would seem my mother preferred sensible, affordable toys. I remember a set of building blocks, not Lego, but those wooden Made-In-China ones, with pre-fabricated columns, windows and arches.

From the same shop in the vicinity of downtown Petaling Street, my mother later got us a box of wooden reading tiles, also Made-In-China, with pictures on one side and both Chinese and English inscriptions on the flipside. My mother thought it was an educational toy but unknown to her, we privately used those 3cm by 3cm tiles to play our version of mahjong and other card games.

Not all memories are sweet. In May 1969, when KL was reeling from racial riots, we had curfews. I was too young to know what was going on but I remember we were kept indoors for days with all our doors and windows shut. Curious as to what was going on outside, I remember peering out through the slit under the door to get a glimpse of what was happening outside - which, luckily, was nothing. The area where we lived was a traditional Chinese stronghold.

But stories of senseless killings filtered to us by word of mouth and for months after May 13, there were many areas in the city that we continued to avoid. My mother was expecting my brother at that time and I have no doubt that it was a stressful time for her. As a young girl, I could already sense the gravity of the situation, though not fully comprehending the far-reaching impact these events would have on the Chinese community in years to come.


Now, more than 4 decades later, the house No 11 where I spent my childhood is still there. Strangers now occupy the place. As I approached No 11 in my car one hot weekday afternoon, the street was quiet and still, without a single soul in sight, notwithstanding that there were cars parked bumper-to-bumper on both sides of the street.

I felt a sense of deja vu. The compound in front of the house was now cemented and the star fruit tree was no longer there - in its place were several potted plants. But the patterned grills of the gate were the same, painted in the same silver paint, and the bamboo roll-up blinds still remained more than 40 years later to shield the occupants of the house from the afternoon sun.

For a while, I was transported back in time.

I saw my mother talking to our neighbours: the family living on the third floor, the spinster and her father across the road and another family two doors away. Mun Soh, Biew Soh, Lei Ku Leong... At that time, the community spirit was strong.

I saw us - me, my sister and my younger brother - cycling up and down the pavement. It was safe then. And I remember the spot where my brother fell from his tricycle and caused a panic.

And I saw my deceased grandmother sitting down and eating her favourite curry chee-cheong-fun with us. She was probably smoking and grumbling too, for her bark had always been known to be worse than her bite. But she had a heart of gold. And we, the children, were her treasures.

Saturday, 7 March 2009

Baby Steps

Not all of us are destined for greatness. Not all of us are destined to build a nation, set world records or blaze trails for future generations. But each and everyone of us has a story to tell.

And my story began one morning in early March at the KL General Hospital. On the same day that I was born, elsewhere in the world, the first US combat forces arrived in Vietnam with 3,500 Marines and the UK No 1 hit was I'll Never Find Another You by The Seekers. That year was a tumultous year in the annals of local history. Lee Kuan Yew and Tunku Abdul Rahman sought to meet the demands of their respective communities and amidst a yawning ideology gap, found that separation was the only way out, thus paving the way for the birth of the tiny nation called Singapore. That same year, The Sound Of Music won the Oscar for Best Picture.

Oblivious to the changing world around us, back in the KL General Hospital, I was happily cosseted by a doting mother and a father, who could have been happier if I were a son, but nevertheless, rejoiced at my birth, his first biological daughter. At that time, the gender of the baby was not known until the actual birth and I could imagine how anxious both my parents must have been while awaiting my arrival.

I was given a name to signify the high expectations that they had of me, a name that is not overtly feminine, which was the trend at that time (eg flower, cloud, rainbow), but a name that sought to combine elegance with greatness and majestic splendour. It was a good name - a name that carried the hopes and the cherished dreams of my mother.

The nurses in the hospital had another name for me, though. "King Kong", they nicknamed me. At >9 lbs (>4kg) at birth, I was a huge baby with lusty cries. I believe I must have got the best of attention from the nurses because we were in a first class ward. My father was a respected civil servant who enjoyed hugely subsidised rates in the government hospital and would never consider a private hospital, unless he was under extreme duress.

My first home was the ground floor unit of a 3-storey walk-up apartment block in the "East End" of KL (see above). We lived with my maternal grandmother who, bless her, took care of me and my mother. My father went for a World Tour shortly after my birth. A World Tour was a big deal at that time and I believe he was away for months. I have seen a photograph of my father at the Macao landmark, Ruins of St Paul, and some postcards that he wrote to my mother in his well-formed cursive handwriting.

I have not heard many stories about me when I was a baby, but my mother loved to tell the story of how I learnt to walk at 9 months (which could be a mother's exaggeration, I don't know, or maybe not, because after all, I was a big baby to begin with). I was already running around during my 1-year-old birthday celebration, with the knife meant for cutting my birthday cake in my hand. We did have some photographs taken on that special occasion which I promise to hunt down one of these days.

My mother's other favourite story was how I was admitted to the KL General Hospital when I was 17 months old, at the same time that she was admitted for the delivery of my younger sister. I had some throat problems - it could be croup or tonsilitis - but it was definitely something serious enough that warranted close medical supervision. But as my grandmother did not want to cause my mother any anxiety while she was recuperating from the birth of my sister, my mother was actually kept in the dark about it. Understandably, she was pretty upset later when she found out.

When I was very young, my bogyman was one of my mother's close friend, a lady called Lily. I do not know why but I grew to fear her more than anyone else. I know that at times, memory may blend with imagination, so that one is unable to separate the two after a long while. But to this day, I have a vision of a very young me sobbing after taking a bath, half naked with just a towel draped around me, and Aunty Lily wielding a cane at me! Was it trauma that caused this slice of memory to be burnt deeply into my psyche, I wonder?

Friday, 6 March 2009

Activity Snapshot

The following snapshots feature "One Week In The Life Of...."
(Scheduled events only)

Son No 3

- 5 days of kindergarten (8:30am - 12:30pm)
- 3 Mandarin Enrichment classes
- 1 English Speech & Drama class
- 1 Piano lesson
- 1 Taekwando class

Son No 2

- 5 days of primary school (1:05pm - 6:40pm)
- 2 Mandarin Enrichment classes
- 1 Piano lesson
- 1 Taekwando class

Son No 1

- 5 days of high school (8:00am - 3:30pm)
- 2 Mandarin Enrichment classes
- 3 Tennis sessions
- 1 Taekwando class

Mummy

- All of the above (driving duties only)
- Less overlap in Taekwando (class attended by the 3 boys together)
- 1 Marketing trip to the wet market
- 1 Grocery shopping trip to the hypermart

Wow... how humdrum can life be...

OK, invites going out to everyone to top the humdrum scale....=^=

Thursday, 5 March 2009

Pop Snapshot

This is the result of my straw poll yesterday, plus recent observation:

Son No 3

Current Favourite Song
Circus by Britney Spears.

Current Favourite TV Shows
1) Tom And Jerry
2) Spongebob Squarepants
3) Little Einsteins

Current Books
Chinese "Little Scrolls" Series

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Son No 2

Current Favourite Song
Love Bug by Jonas Brothers

Current Favourite TV Show/Movie
High School Musical 3
The Most Extreme Animal Series

Current Books
The 6th book of the Secret Seven series
Various animal books

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Son No 1

Current Favourite Song
"Don't know"
Listens to I-Tunes Top 10 Songs

Recently Watched TV Show
90210

Recently Read
The Twilight series
Dan Brown

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Mummy

Current Favourite Song
None.
Now listening to Stephanie Sun in the car.

Current Favourite TV Show
Brothers And Sisters
(just finished Season 2)

Recently Read
Living History by Hillary Rodham Clinton

Now Reading
Bill Gates Speaks by Janet Lowe
The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards

Wednesday, 4 March 2009

The Rainbow Connection

It is fair to say that whatever our age, we are excited when we chance upon a rainbow. But after the initial excitement, what next? Well, then it does depend on your age...

Son No 3 would say "I want to go to the rainbow". His mummy, down-to-earth and dead-honest as usual, would say that he can't. Why not? Well, because a rainbow is just a vision.... (blank look), it is an illusion... (huh?), it is not real.... (it looked very real to him). Look, it will disappear when you go near it, OK? "You mean, it is like the clouds?" Hmm... never mind, I do not really want to take away that innocence so soon. I can't very well tell him that the rainbow is caused by the refraction of electromagnetic waves when the waves travel through media of different density.

Son No 2, two years older and thinking that he is wiser, would say "No-la, you can only get the rainbow when there is rain and sun together, right, mummy?" Then he would go on to say, "I want to go to the end of the rainbow." He has heard of the common folklore and wants that pot of gold. I am not sure whether it is a sign that there is still some innocence left in him.

Son No 1, the analytical big brother, would want to show off to his younger siblings. He would say, "I can tell you all the colours of the rainbow" and would go on to rattle off the names of the colours by heart. Then mummy would challenge him, so which colour is in the inner arc of the rainbow? And after pausing for a while to think, he would be able to provide the answer.

Mummy, on the other hand, would keep her thoughts to herself - pondering philosophically why she sees more rainbows here in KL than in Singapore. The last one she saw was just during the Chinese New Year period. Is the weather pattern here really so different?

Or is God showering more blessings on this country? After all, this country is run by clowns (and that's putting it really mildly since clowns do no harm to others) and yet, the country has managed to function and even escape great calamities. The country has been registering positive growth over the years despite the huge amount of wastage that flows through the very large crevices that everybody knows about. Is this country blessed (in a certain way) or what?

Coming back to the rainbow, some may offer this simple explanation: that Singapore has too many highrise buildings which block the line of sight. To even see the sky, for heaven's sake, one needs to look vertically up. So how to see the rainbow?!

There is an even simpler explanation: when most people come home from work, it is already dark. If one does not even see the blue sky, then how to see the rainbow?

Photo courtesy of pauel_0206

Tuesday, 3 March 2009

Rainbows and Traffic Jams

Yesterday, we saw another rainbow on our way home after fetching Son No 2. The rainbow was spectacular, arching over the entire sky. It lifted our spirits and as always, I am reminded of the Bible and God's covenant to mankind.

I have seen more rainbows here over the past two years than my entire life in Singapore.

Today, there was no rainbow. Instead, I was caught in a 1.5-hour traffic jam going to fetch Son No 2 AND another 1.5-hour traffic jam coming back. That's altogether 3 hours on the road. My fingers were so stiff gripping the steering wheel that I had to do finger-flexing exercises. My right foot was similarly stiff after holding it angled in a fixed position for 3 hours.

I have had more traffic jams here over the past two years than my entire life in Singapore.

That about describes my life here in KL.

BTW, in case you missed the point, this is supposed to be cheem!

Sunday, 1 March 2009

My Piano And Me

My love affair with the piano began a long time ago. I have no idea what triggered it but I have always wanted to play the piano.

I started piano lessons when I was 8 years old. My father had passed away and my mother was making ends meet. Life was ...well, not really hard... but certainly not easy. But my mother knew that I wanted to play the piano and she found a piano teacher for me. I remember how my mother bargained on the fees from the going rate of RM30 to RM28 a month. That savings of RM2 a month was enough to cover the transportation cost.

I went for my piano lessons every week by bus. My piano teacher's house was at Old Town which was like a 15-minute bus ride away. My eldest sister would accompany me for my piano lessons after she had finished school. Later, my piano teacher shifted to Section 7 which was nearer to my house and I walked there every week by myself.

The duration of the official lesson was 1.5 hours, but I remember my mom would always encourage my sister be late in picking me up. She reckoned it was more worth the money if I stayed longer, lol! My piano teacher did not mind and I ended up doing a lot of theory practice.

When I delve into the corners of my mind, it's amazing what inconsequential memory still holds in my memory bank. I remember my piano bag was a clear plastic bag with red trimmings and a big strawberry picture in front and my first piano book was Michael Aaron. I remember my sisters gathering round me and singing Christopher Columbus, one of the earliest songs I learnt during those first few lessons.

I was a very disciplined music student. I practised everyday, initially an hour a day and steadily progressing to 3 hours a day when I reached higher grades. My family gave me a lot of encouragement. They never complained, not even once, when I banged away on my scales or my exam pieces repeatedly day in day out. In our small house, the racket that I was raising must be considerable. My neighbours must have wished that we would go away, I am sure!

My first piano, oh, I do not even remember its brand - it was a second-hand piano that my mother got for me for practise. When I reached Grade 5, my piano teacher advised my mother to get me a good piano. The Challen that we got was a joy to play and it was with me for many, many years.

As for my first public performance.... ah! When I was in Standard Four, I was the most advanced piano student in my class as I had skipped two grades. My class was scheduled to perform during one of the assembly periods. I remember I played Strauss's "Tales From The Vienna Woods" while a friend of mine choreographed the dance.

Once, I also played for a radio programme. My piano teacher had some connections with a radio station and she managed to get a slot for a few of her students to perform. I was about the youngest student that she chose to perform and I remember I played Dvorak's "Humoresque".

I finished my Grade 8 when I was 14. My teacher thought I should continue my music education with another teacher and she recommended me to one who lived at Pantai Hills. My mother would drive me there and wait for me for 45 minutes to finish my lesson.

I never completed my diploma in piano because I went down to Singapore to study when I was 16. For a short while, I had lessons in Singapore but staying in a hostel, it was just too difficult to continue. I had to walk like a mile to the music room to practise on this rickety Made-In-China piano. I enjoyed the walk though :)

But strangely, it was when my formal lessons ended that I really learnt to play the piano. I started experimenting with pop songs and making up my own music whenever I could and it was liberating. When I was in JC, I accompanied a friend of mine in a singing contest, playing the Carpenters' hit, "Goodbye To Love".

Today, I play all sorts of music, whatever my mood suits me, whatever I feel like playing.... the Classics, Mandarin pop, English pop, Disney's songs, Richard Clayderman ... When words fail, my music takes over.

For all this, I thank my mother - who gave me this great gift - a music education.